Healthy body, healthy spirit, healthy mothering. This is the journey I have set out on with my two amazing children.

Sunday, November 06, 2011

Questioning

I attended the labor of my newest nephew this week.  She rocked it and once again my disgust with the American labor/delivery medical system was reinforced.  She labored through their induction meds, she stayed away from drugs, she labored hard for nearly 12 hours and she still ended up in surgery.

The reasons why?  I guess that depends on who you talk to.  The Dr. will say her placenta was no longer working and that is why baby's heart rate dropped.  I would say they flipped her onto her back and told her to hold her breath, decreasing hers & babies oxygen, they told her to push against her bodies natural rhythm.

Who is right?  No way to know.  Does it matter?  Baby is healthy (thank God!), Momma will recover.

I just don't know if I can make this my life's work.  It is so draining.  Emotionally.  Physically.  I just don't know what to do.

1 comment:

Linda said...

You'll be amazing in this field. Don't be discouraged because you're too amazing at what you do and too many women can benefit from your knowledge, strength, guidance and encouragement!