Healthy body, healthy spirit, healthy mothering. This is the journey I have set out on with my two amazing children.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Negative Nelly (or Tia)

I feel I must apologize for my negative attitude of late.  I have been such a witch, and not just in my blog posts, facebook status' and other assorted online personalities.  My grumpiness has known no boundaries at home and work too.  

As I was sitting here, trying to catch up on others blogs I was so excited to see the rain clouds come rolling in. Most people like to complain about the rain (especially ruining summer plans).  Me?  Not so much.  I am just not a summer kinda gal.  99 degrees yesterday and 95 today is just too dang hot to actually DO much of anything.  At least, it is for me.  I haven't wanted to cook (the a/c is out), play outside with the kids (I feel like I will melt), or drive (the car was acting up).  This rain has pointed out my crap attitude to me.  So I think I will make a list of things that I am thankful for, as penance for focusing on the things I am not so thankful for.

1.  The rain for my garden, bringing cool air to make up for the lack of a/c. 

2.  A really great car guy recommended by a friend/neighbor.  Only charged me $450 for a job that 3 auto shops quoted an average of $1600.

3.  Pizza places that deliver when this tired momma doesn't want to cook.

4.  Skype.  I learned how to use this and LOVE the fact that I can see my sis as I chat with her.  

5.  Knuckles.  As in, my not quite 2 year old nephew holding his tiny, little fist up to the web cam so he can give his Tia "knuckles".  He also gives kisses which make my heart skip a beat.  

6.  A co-worker's vacation.  I am getting 27 extra hours of work next week which will go a long way towards paying off that car bill.

I can't make any promises about maintaining a positive outlook.  It's just not natural.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Down in the dumps

Please bear with me.  Ever since my little sis moved across the freaking country to some tiny-town in Pennsylvania I have been down in the dumps.  I just haven't been able to pull myself out of this slump yet.

I pass the Starbucks where we would meet regularly and burst into tears.  I wanted to go to my favorite little mexican place "Mi Tierra" but couldn't stand the thought of eating there without her.  It's where we ate a LOT when she was preggers with her little man.  Missing him is just about killing me.  The fact that his not-quite-2 year old brain has already forgotten who I am makes me die a little bit inside.

I promise, I'll pull myself out of this and post some pics of the kids soon.  We have been doing stuff (they shouldn't suffer cuz I am).  Camping, Cub Scout day camp and the upcoming rocket launch etc...I have lots of pictures but no desire to post them just yet.