I tried not to blog about this topic. I didn't want to put it out there into the blogosphere. If they work things out you don't want written proof of how you really feel. I was hoping (in vain), that the counseling would help, that he would choose his family over his job (where the bimbo is). Perhaps he wasn't really a lying, cheating, P.O.S. posing as a loving, Christian man...but sadly it's not the way of the world, is it? He is a donkeys ass.
I write on this blog because I cannot vent my feelings verbally as their children are constantly looking, listening, trying desperately to find out what I know. My kids love this man and look up to him. Hell, my son wants to grow up to BE him. After this, that will happen over my cold, dead body.
I have not even been pretending to be healthy since the news broke a couple weeks ago. We have eaten more fast food "burgers" and fries than any family should probably eat in 1/2 a year. I refuse to step on a scale. My pants are tight and that is not good. I did make a crockpot full of vegetarian chili. The kids seem to like putting it on baked potatoes. That is fairly healthy. However, we ate that 3 days in a row and there is still some in the fridge. I should probably freeze it. I have been stopping at McDonalds every day to buy a large coke (they are any size for $1 right now).
I sat the kids down tonight to have a talk.
Mama: You guys know that you can talk to me about anything right?
Ma: I want you to tell me how you are feeling about Tia & Tio. It's not good to keep all those feelings inside, that's when we start to make really bad choices.
Th: Are they ever going to live together again?
Ma: I just don't know guys. Right now, it doesn't seem like it.
Kelen: E says Tio lied to Tia and that is really, really bad.
Ma: What did he say he was lying about?
Kel: He was lying about eating good foods when he was really eating bad, junk stuff.
Ma: That may be true but people don't decide to end their relationships because one of them lies about food.
Kel: Then what did he lie about?
Ma: uhhhh. Ummm. *Ahem*
Neva: Does he still love us?
Ma: of course he does baby! You will always be loved.
Them: OK. Can we have a double cheeseburger to share?