Healthy body, healthy spirit, healthy mothering. This is the journey I have set out on with my two amazing children.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

D.I.V.O.R.C.E.

I tried not to blog about this topic.  I didn't want to put it out there into the blogosphere.  If they work things out you don't want written proof of how you really feel.  I was hoping (in vain), that the counseling would help, that he would choose his family over his job (where the bimbo is).  Perhaps he wasn't really a lying, cheating, P.O.S. posing as a loving, Christian man...but sadly it's not the way of the world, is it?  He is a donkeys ass.

I write on this blog because I cannot vent my feelings verbally as their children are constantly looking, listening, trying desperately to find out what I know. My kids love this man and look up to him.  Hell, my son wants to grow up to BE him.  After this, that will happen over my cold, dead body.

I have not even been pretending to be healthy since the news broke a couple weeks ago.  We have eaten more fast food "burgers" and fries than any family should probably eat in 1/2 a year.  I refuse to step on a scale.  My pants are tight and that is not good.  I did make a crockpot full of vegetarian chili.   The kids seem to like putting it on baked potatoes.  That is fairly healthy.  However, we ate that 3 days in a row and there is still some in the fridge.  I should probably freeze it.  I have been stopping at McDonalds every day to buy a large coke (they are any size for $1 right now).

I sat the kids down tonight to have a talk.

Mama: You guys know that you can talk to me about anything right?

Them: Yeah.

Ma: I want you to tell me how you are feeling about Tia & Tio.  It's not good to keep all those feelings inside, that's when we start to make really bad choices.

Th: Are they ever going to live together again?

Ma:  I just don't know guys.  Right now, it doesn't seem like it.

Kelen: E says Tio lied to Tia and that is really, really bad.

Ma: What did he say he was lying about?

Kel:  He was lying about eating good foods when he was really eating bad, junk stuff.

Ma: That may be true but people don't decide to end their relationships because one of them lies about food.

Kel: Then what did he lie about?

Ma: uhhhh.  Ummm.  *Ahem*

Neva: Does he still love us?

Ma: of course he does baby!  You will always be loved.

Them:  OK.  Can we have a double cheeseburger to share?

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Meet my fridge

A few months ago, one of the blogs I read regularly "Green and Crunchy" asked her readers what was in their fridge.  At the time I was crazy busy with schools, preparing for finals, and getting ready for the amped up Christmas work hours and all the insanity that goes along with the month of December (I work in shipping).

So, now that my life is back to normal a regular schedule (and I am on vacation from school) I thought about it and grabbed my camera.  It just so happens that I had cleaned my fridge a couple days before (Thank God!).

Here is the outside of my fridge.  As you can see, I kind of have a thing for pigs.  That piggy cookie jar on the top is one of my favorites.  The Saltine can has nothing in it.  I keep it though because it belonged to my grandma.  Feel free to ignore the pizza box (I am).  

My fridge is ALWAYS covered in the kids' artwork.
Ok.  Here we go.  Time to open the door.



Top Shelf: 1 can of cat food waiting to be served for dinner.  They eat 1 can a day between the 2 of them.  A crockpot filled with baked beans.  I am determined to find a baked bean recipe that isn't too sweet.  1 jar of tomatoes, a jar of rice (I think), 1 ginormous tub of ranch dressing and some chocolate soymilk.  I don't usually buy the chocolate milk but it was in the clearance bin for $1.


Top drawer: 1 lonely block of cream cheese.  I think I bought it for a recipe but now Kel just eats it on his almond crackers.


Middle Shelf: 1 carton of eggs and my cold, filtered water.  Yes I keep it in the coffee pot carafe because I never use my coffee pot.


Bottom Shelf: Mike's Pomegranate Hard Lemonade that has been in the fridge since before Halloween.  Organic, romaine lettuce, 1 bottle of Zrii, a bowl of leftover salad from Dominos, giant tub of ketchup and my son's leftover dinner.  I think he was sent to bed early that night for fighting with his sister.



Crisper Drawer #1:  1 head of organic cabbage and 2 organic cucumbers.


Crisper Drawer # 2: 1 bunch of organic Swiss Red Chard



Now onto the door.  This is always filled with condiments.  We LOVE condiments as you can see.  Shall we give the door its close-up?


The ketchup bottle we refill, some cinnamon creamer & organic flax seed which I like to put into and on anything I can think of.  So good for us!


The Annie's bottle says it is a viniagrette but actually it is some leftover bbq sauce that I had nowhere to store because one of the kids lost the lid to the actual bbq bottle.


We love mustards!  Plus we just finished up the jar on the bottom right which was the kids great-grandma's homemade mixed berry jelly.  I can't wait til next summer when she sends us some more.




We really like jellies.  The organic mixed berry is from Sunflower Market (must've been on sale) and we LOVE LOVE LOVE the  quince preserves.

As we continue our journey we shall leave the fridge and head to its northern neighbor the freezer.  The freezer is a very tiny, actually itty bitty place but I have managed to cram stuff carefully arrange it with lots of goodies.




Freezer Door: Lots of baggies of little leftovers.  Hot dog buns (when did we last buy hot dogs!?), a plum, 2 bananas, an ice pack, 1 leftover pedialyte popsicle from when my nephew was here with a major fever, pine nuts, strawberries, jalepenos and one femur bone from my anatomy studies.  I need to thaw that sucker out and give it to the neighbor's dog.


Lots of goodies here.  The 2 tubs are homemade chicken stock, bananas, under those are some organic apricots.  Under the sausage are some organic green peppers and next to that is a bag of organic corn I cut off the cob while it was in season.

On the bottom are some organic cherries, chorizo, cut up bananas, and a giant pork shoulder waiting to be turned into homemade tamales.  What you can't see are the rest of my organic veggies from our CSA.  There is broccoli, cauliflower, green beans, peas, peaches, strawberries, blackberries, raspberries & some grapes.

As we are slowly cutting back on the meat we eat it is beginning to show in my fridge & freezer.  I am now only buying meat that is free-range, fed organically grown non-GMO foods and given no antibiotics.  That stuff is INSANELY EXPENSIVE so we have very little of it.  If I see it on sale I try to buy some but that is very rare.

So, I have exposed the very insides of my fridge.
What's in yours?

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

I hate organization

It goes against my natural inclination. I am not an organized person. I have piles. I have piles on my piles and this works for me. Unfortunately it has begun to appear as if I should be on an upcoming episode of "Hoarders".

*sigh*

I am trying to avoid this. I have several excuses. Some of them are legit and some are just excuses. We DID have a flood. 6 months ago. I guess it is kinda like blaming my jiggly belly on baby weight. I just leave out the fact that my baby is almost 8 years old. That's how I roll. For me, there is absolutely no time limit on valid excuses. It was an initial cause and I tend to stick with it. Loyal, thats me...loyal to a fault?

DOWNSTAIRS/MAIN FLOOR
One excuse for all the crap in my upstairs dining area was our flooded basement family room. All the stuff (books, pictures, games, camping stuff, Xmas stuff) was down there and now it is up. I had nowhere to put it. That excuse is getting old because I finally have a wall in the family room. Most of the flood repairs are done. I have actually begun the process of tearing down the wallpaper from that room and I am really hoping I get it painted and put back to "normal" before I go back to school in a week and a half. In the meantime the kids and I packed up all of the Christmas stuff and put it into some sturdy plastic tubs. I am waiting for the Christmas blankets to dry so that I can pack them away and the idea is to put all of this stuff into our crawl space. I may have to put away the Halloween decorations too. They are around here somewhere. Anyway...

UPSTAIRS
I already began clearing out my bedroom closet (I have 2) for all of our craft stuff. I moved all of the clothing to the right closet and now have the left closet (with shelves) for the craft crap that I have. At this exact moment 1/2 of it is already put away and the other half is sitting at the top of my stairs in our hallway. :)

I have high hopes for this organizing project. But, in 3 months, if I invite you to a lovely lunch at McDonalds for my sons birthday party; well I guess we will all know the real reason I didn't invite you to my house. I'll just say I lost my organization checklist. Somewhere.

It'll be at the bottom of a pile.

UPDATE 1/11/10

I actually did it! All of the holiday tubs are in the crawl space. Thank God for brave sons who are willing to climb into dirty (literally, there is no floor just dirt) yucky crawl spaces for their momma's. :) We also went through all of our camping supplies put them away in a plastic tub. I even remembered to search all the drawers for stray plastic forks & spoons which are perfect for camping trips. HOORAY!!!

Now I sit waiting for my monkysis & her big ol vehicle so we can take the spare bed from dad, water filter I don't use, hardware for the vertical blinds I hated & took down & the nordic track I never used. It heads to the habitat for humanity store.