Healthy body, healthy spirit, healthy mothering. This is the journey I have set out on with my two amazing children.

Monday, March 31, 2008

hurt

I got a text that wished me a good day. & called me beautiful in mind & spirit. I should be very happy with that. But all that happened is I focused on not being beautiful in body. I am trying. I really am. I am working out everyday, hell I even jogged the other day. Not for very long, but it was a start and today I was able to add a couple of minutes. I am trying to cook healthier foods for the family but I am still just an overweight soccer mom. Joy.

Why am I so hard on myself? I think the answer is clear. Because I need to be.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Tadaa!


This is my hair. I did it again. I cut my hair. Went to Great Clips and told the lady I wanted my hair "somewhere around my shoulders." We decided to cut it off in a ponytail so that I could donate to Locks of Love. Anybody out there with 10" or more hair to cut off can donate. They make wigs for kids that lose their hair due to cancer. Anyway, it needs to dry before I can mail it away. It is currently in the linen closet because the cats seem to think it is a brand new toy for them. I don't have any pictures of what I look like with the new hair but eventually I will get one and post it.

Oh and if you get your hair cut at Great Clips (like I did) they don't charge if you are donating it to Locks of Love. I did not know this when I decided to go there and unfortunately I had no cash on me. I had to go home, get some money and return so that I could tip the lady that did my hair. :) FYI.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Grocery Store Wars






This is awesome! It's an organic 'star wars'. Thank you to bean-sprouts.blogspot.com for leading me to this hilarious video.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Shampoo to Save the Earth



I know the picture sucks, sorry about that. This is the best "new" product I have found. I am loving it! I have been trying to reduce the amount of plastic we use as a family. My dilemma? Shampoo & conditioner bottles. They are ALL plastic. But look what I found! DRUMROLL PLEASE!!!!! J.R. Liggett's Old-Fashioned Bar Shampoo. This stuff is amazing!

So now I present the reasons for you to run immediately (well maybe on your next shopping trip as we don't want to promote the wasting of gas) to your local natural grocery store:

-NO PLASTIC

-Smells absolutely wonderful, there were two options at my store. Original and an herbal-scented version.

-Advertised as reducing the need for conditioner. This has been true for me so far. FOR ME PEOPLE!! I still have wayyyy too much hair, too long, tangled, & I still do not use a hairbrush to get out said tangles. I used this little bar and have not used any conditioner since. (I was hoping to post a picture of the Bride of Frankenstein here--think of that glorious hair--but I can't get the darn link to work)

-No animal products or testing. Some of us hippie mommas care about these things.

-No preservatives & it is 100% bio-degradable.

-Money-back guarantee

-Affordable. I think I paid around $5 for this 3.5 oz bar. Now I know this seems extreme but it says it has about the same # of uses as a 24oz bottle (I have not had the bar long enough to prove this true yet). I buy cheap shampoo & expensive conditioners so this is actually saving me money.

Friday, March 14, 2008

A Good Day

So I haven't written about Kel's birthday party yet...sorry about that. I can't get the darn pictures to upload (which is incredibly frustrating). Anyhow, I will get to that sometime this week, I think.

Nevaeh & I went grocery shopping today. Found some decent organic chicken & beef on sale. Woohoo! We also got a couple of cans of organic soups, just enought for a few lunches as my plan is to start making soup in the crockpot and that will be my lunch each day (Neva likes sandwiches & salads). I was also a bad earth-momma and bought 3 boxes of packaged organic mac n cheese. Yes it is organic, which is good, but it is a pre-packaged meal, which is bad. Perhaps they cancel each other out hmm?

Its been a good day. I volunteered at the school library (hadn't gone for two weeks due to depression and feeling crappy). Like I said we went grocery shopping. When I came home, Neva ate lunch (leftovers) while I put groceries away. Then I decided to do the dishes and also to put away all of the crap from under my kitchen sink. It has been sitting on my floor for at least 3 weeks, ever since the sink flooded. I was too dang lazy to put the shelving unit back together. But it is done now. I also put some dinner in the crockpot. Elk-swiss steak. I really hope it turns out good...smells great! Did some sociology work, online & also a couple of online workbook pages for my spanish class.

Took the kids to see "Horton Hears a Who". Parents, don't waste your money on this one. It is an ok film but definitely NOT worth the $40 price tag for tickets, popcorn & drinks. (We took our own candy from home.)

Now, the kids are outside riding their bikes while I mess around on the computer, putting off the mounds of homework awaiting me. Urgh.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

here we go again

I am sad tonight. I need to cry. I wish I could think of something to pull myself out of this, I don't know what to call it. A funk I guess. I am in a major funk.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Consequences of Grief


My family is falling apart. Since Dad's death some of us have gotten so much closer to each other. This is as it should be. We cling to one another because we can no longer cling to Dad and we want to.

Some siblings that were once incredibly close, even good friends, are barely even speaking to one another. The desire to see one another is gone. Perhaps it is because we have had the realization of how short life is bashed into our heads. Why should we spend time with a person we have little in common with. Shared blood is no longer enough apparently. We dislike each others friends/boyfriends/work/life choices, you name it, so why waste our precious time with these people? Is this how it should be? Is this how it shall be from now on?

Those of us that were already estranged no longer even pretend to want to speak or see one another ever again. Dad was the only thing we had in common and with him gone why pretend?

I hate death. I hate the consequences for those of us left behind.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Cussing in writing

Nope, not me. My 7 year old son. I was sorting laundry today and while emptying Kelens pockets I found a pencil stub and a folded up piece of paper. I open the paper and what do I find? Every mothers favorite nightmare. A note calling somebody (there was no name) a m.f-ing a-hole. This is clearly my childs handwriting. Now, what do I do?

Normally, I would yell. After all...my son learned these words from somebody and ya'll know I am very picky about what he gets to see in movies or on t.v. So. I am to blame. Crap. I suck.

The whole point of this post is that I am actually pretty proud of myself for how I handled the situation. I talked to Kel. Found out who this note was aimed at and why he had written it. I told him that it was very good that he did NOT give this note to the child in question. I explained that it is ok to be angry, even pissed off at what this kid did but that it would NEVER be ok to give this note to him. I told him that we all know how pissed off momma gets at people and that it is also NEVER ok for me to use these words. I apologized to him for setting such an horrible example for him. I also explained that it is very important for him to talk to me (or somebody trustworthy) when he gets this angry. Bottling up that anger is not the path he wants to take in life. Believe me I know all about that.

I remember as a kid (I think maybe 3rd grade) some friends and I wrote a letter like this to a kid. We said the most horrible things to this little boy, horrible, hurtful, hateful words. We also got caught. I was the only one of the letter writers to be grounded by a parent. i chose not to do the same with my son. If he had gone through with his plan to give this to the child I would have had to seriously punish him. But the very fact that he chose not to, that he chose to get this crap out of his little heart and onto the paper, but made the wise decision to keep it to himself. Should I punish him for making the overall right choice?

How many of us would have that much self-control?