Healthy body, healthy spirit, healthy mothering. This is the journey I have set out on with my two amazing children.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Ain't I real edumacated?
We were very blessed this year with our new home. Altho I have to call the plumber again cuz my kids & niece managed to flood the toilet. How does a 9 year old sit down to poop and not notice that the water is touching her butt? Hmmm? Just wondering cuz that is exactly what happened here about 2 hours ago. Happy new year to me. lol
We managed a vacation to Texas. The kids got to spend Christmas with their daddys family & I got to take them. 'Nuff said.
We got a PS2 for Christmas and I cannot wait to kick my son's butt in an NHL game. :)
Monday, December 08, 2008
The kids are still alive. We have moved into a new place. I bought it. I am suffering from an extreme case of buyers remorse. What the hell was I thinking!?!
My roommate is a freaking loon. I want to slap her upside her crazy-ass head with a broom.
I still don't have a camera and now that all my moolah is funneling into my own personal hell er money pit er brand new, lovely home I won't be spending money on a camera for a while.
Finals are in 1 week. Scouts is driving me nuts. I need to go study.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I had a pepsi in my purse, my daughter wanting to be nice put it in there for me at a party "so you would have one at home momma." It leaked. Mycamera seems to be beyond repair. Crap.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
On the other hand. My pants are definitely getting looser. They are saggin' a bit in the ass & thighs. Bad news. They catch on my ginormous mexi-momma hips and I am not quite ready for a smaller size. Sooooo freakin' close though. If my knee doesn't act up this week then I think by my next update I may get to go shopping. :)
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
- Did you know every time you eat a 1/4lb hamburger, you have contributed to the destruction of 70 acres of rainforest?
- About 130 years ago the following illnesses were only found amongst the incredibly wealthy (they were the only ones that could afford to eat animal-foods regularly.): heart disease, diabetes, cancer, arthritis, alzheimers, constipation, menopause, PMS, osteoporosis and lots more
- Over 80% of the grains we raise here in the U.S. are used to feed animals that we are raising to eat. Stupid much? Why don't we use that grain to feed ourselves or the thousands of starving PEOPLE in this world.
- E.Coli & bird flu are just two of the many diseases that are caused by the animals we consume. E. Coli is because the animal crap is on our food. Gross.
- Mass production of animals for consumption is using vast amounts of our water resources. They are also not required to treat the animal waste before it runs back into our "clean" water supplies. Drink poop much?
This is just off the top of my head. If I research it I could come up with pages of reasons. Point is...we are starting slowly. I cannot afford to just throw out the food that we have here at home. We get food from the food bank at church and that often has tuna, soups with meat & other processed crap that I am trying to stop consuming. So the kids and I are starting with dairy. We will still use butter (has to be healthier than margarine.) We will OCCASIONALLY buy cheese, but I plan to limit that to the really, good, expensive stuff maybe 1x a month. We are not buying anymore milk. I have asked the kids not to drink milk with their breakfast & lunch at school. I am not going to buy sour cream or yogurt but instead am using kefir. Yes this is dairy, but it is the healthiest alternative that I have found so far. The "good" bacteria in it apparently is more compatible with our bodies than those found in yogurt.
Here is my 1st attempt at cutting down the meat for dinner. Beef stroganoff. I'd say it was 90% mushroom to 10% beef. I used vegan worcestershire for the color & flavor & lots & lots & lots of onion, garlic & fresh shrooms.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Workouts: I have been doing DDR (dance dance revolution) 3-4 times a week for 1 hour at a time. That is one hell of a workout and I don't get bored. The sweat is freaking pouring off of me by the 30 minute mark. :) I also did one of the workouts from this months Self magazine but it hurt my knee so I am back to DDR. Also went for a walk with the kids.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Your mission, should you choose to accept it:
1) Copy this list into your own blog, including these instructions.
2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating. Or if you are like me and can't figure out how to cross it off put it in red. :)
4) Post a comment here once you’ve finished and link your post back to this one.
5) Pass it on!
2. Green Smoothie
3. Tofu Scramble
6. Creme brulee
10. Baba ghanoush
12. Authentic soba noodles
13. PB&J sandwich
14. Aloo gobi
15. Taco from a street cart
16. Boba Tea
17. Black truffle
18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes
20. Vanilla ice cream
21. Heirloom tomatoes
22. Fresh wild berries
23. Ceviche actually i would eat this but i am allergic to most fish type foods
24. Rice and beans
26. Raw scotch bonnet pepper
27. Dulce de leche
30. Pate ---barbaric
31. Wasabi peas
32. Chowder in a sourdough bowl
33. Mango lassi
35. Root beer float
36. Mulled cider
37. Scones with buttery spread and jam
38. Vodka jelly
40. Fast food french fries
41. Raw Brownies
42. Fresh Garbanzo Beans
44. Homemade Soymilk
45. Wine from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more (as long as I wasn't paying for it. =)
48. Vegetable Sushi
49. Glazed doughnut
51. Prickly pear
54. Sheese i loathe the fake cheeses...just can't get used to 'em
55. Cotton candy
57. Piña colada
58. Birch beer
60. Carob chips
62. Soy curls
63. Chickpea cutlets
66. Homemade Sausages
67. Churros, elephant ears, or funnel cake
68. Smoked tofu
69. Fried plantain
72. Warm chocolate chip cookies
74. Corn on the cob
75. Whipped cream, straight from the can
77. Fauxstess Cupcake
78. Mashed potatoes with gravy
81. French onion soup
82. Savory crepes
84. A meal at Candle 79
86. Sprouted grains or seeds
87. Macaroni and “cheese”
89. Matzoh ball soup
90. White chocolate
93. Butterscotch chips
94. Yellow watermelon
95. Chili with chocolate
96. Bagel and Tofutti
97. Potato milk
99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
100. Raw cookie dough
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Here is the conversation.
kelen: *singing* Momma don't taaaake my cordless phone awaaaaayyy.
momma: *trying to keep a straight face* Kelen...he's saying 'momma don't take my kodachrome away'
kelen: that's just dumb. there's no such thing as a kodachrome
momma: it was a camera from a long time before you were born.
kelen: mom LISTEN TO THE WORDS!!! *eyes rolling up into his head* HIS MOTHER ISN'T LETTING HIM TALK ON THE PHONE!
momma: *in a soothing tone* there were no such things as cordless phones when this song was written.
kelen: Geez mom. all phones are cordless.
He walks away and goes outside to play. Probably telling every boy in the neighborhood what a total moron his mother is.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
But...not the body part I shall showcase as I will be too sad to watch them shrinking as I take part in the ass project. Anyway. I digress. From now on Fridays shall be my ass project day. I will post the exercising I have done for the previous week and post the picture of my chosen body part.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
- I lost another pound this week.
- insomnia is back
- i am still pining for a baby of my own
- i need to start looking for new apartments/houses...i wanna move in october
- school starts in less than 2 weeks for the kids :)
- fuck you & your untouchable face :) great freakin' song lyrics
- my cats are pouting because i have been spending so much time at monkeys house
- i need to buy canned cat food & kitty litter but i am freaking broke
- i need to buy school supplies for the kids
- my car is acting up
- i am 3 days behind in my bible reading...i have stayed at monkeys house for the past 4 days ...coincidence? :)
- i made an awesome homemade tomato soup today. it was so very good & so very healthy but i also cheated & had a grilled cheese sandwich
- i am heading out to have a cigarette as soon as i am done with this list :)
- i am so in love with my new superhero nephew! he is amazingly adorably awesome!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
b: oatmeal w/ organic peaches, molasses & real maple syrup
l: homemade hummus w/ sundried tomatoes, artichoke hearts & garlic spread on a tortilla w/ romaine lettuce & carrots. It was soo friggin' yummy!
d: barbecued grilled chicken breast & fries
w: drank about 60oz
b: eggs scrambled w/ garlic, carrots, onion & green peppers, 2 slices bacon, 1 slice spelt bread w/ applebutter & chia seeds
l: chicken tortilla soup w/ great northern beans, chai
d: Qdoba grilled veggie burrito w. pico. very good. also cheated & had a coke
w: not nearly enough. maybe 44 oz
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
-My bro-in-law does not want to leave his wife & new son to go back to work
-My kids are getting on my nerves...altho they are really doing nothing wrong.
-I got asked out on a date. I said no. I am wondering why.
-I really, really, really, really want a cigarette
-I really, really, really, really want to get laid
-I have lost another 7 lbs
-My apartment smells like vinegar
-I make excellent hummus.
-I need to take a bath & shave my incredibly hairy legs.
-I am taking 4 kids to see "Horton Hears a Who" tomorrow. I can't afford to buy popcorn.
-I am wondering this...if I really do want to get laid why didn't I accept that dinner invite?
-I still need to read my daily bible.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
So for today. I got up and drank my lemon water. I actually enjoy this now. At first I thought it would make me ill as I generally HATE any type of flavoring in my water. My zrii showed up today, via UPS so I shall add some of that to my juice this afternoon. I took a quick shower & then juiced my watermelon. Now I have enough for today & tomorrow. I used my mocajete to grind some chia seeds and I added 1 TBSP to my watermelon juice per detox instructions. This is what I want to talk about. My little sis L told me "they aren't bad." She told me to soak them and when I went to drink them I wouldn't "even notice them. They get gelatinous."
That is not a word I want associated with my foods. I don't like boba. I don't eat tapioca. I don't eat the nasty skin that forms on the top of pudding. Hell I don't really like Jello because the of the nasty-ass gelatinous texture. urp!
Do you see what those nasty little, gelatinous, mothertruckers are doing to my delicious watermelon juice? They gooped my shit all up! URP!! Looks like snot to me. I am not a chia seed fan, let me tell you. My tummy is now rumbly & I am forcing myself to drink this goop.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I drank only juice today. I also slept from 3-5:30pm. I watched The Closer marathon on TNT. I went to a Cub Scout Committee meeting. I drank lots & lots of water. I lost 2 lbs. :) The detox continues.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I did weigh myself this morning. Still the same. I have not lost even a single pound in the last 4-5 weeks. Hopefully that will change, dramatically & quickly.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Food wise? Ok but not great.
Got up and drank my 2 glasses of water & a small glass of juice with my radiance C. Lunch was cherry tomatoes, cucumber & carrots with an asian ginger viniagrette. I prepared my juice for the next 2 days. Urgh! It is NOT attractive but it tastes ok. I have not gotten my supplements in the mail yet but I don't particularly want to wait for those before starting the cleanse. Dinner was more difficult as Hoss grilled. I had some steamed rice w/ tomatoes, celery, carrot, onion & garlic. I gave the meat I prepared for the kids to Monk. I cheated big time & had a goat pecker (pickle wrapped w/ cream cheese smeared ham. YUMMO! But not in any way healthy. Monk & I shared a strawberry cupcake, at least I only had half. I have not drank enough water today & have to be more vigilant about that.
I have to weigh myself tomorrow. YUCK.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Here is the list of systems that are working at less than 50%: immune, digestive, lymphatic, vascular, urinary & skeletal. OOPS!
Working at about 50%: respiratory & nervous.
Working above 50%: only the endocrine system.
On the plus side. I have no cancer markers. Yay! That was my biggest fear in getting this testing done. That fear has kept me from going in for at least the past 6 months. So...it is done.
Now for the solution.
1-A 7 day mild cleanse/detox. This is basically a juice fast. I have to eat primarily raw foods for the next 3 days in order to prepare my body for this fast. Get extra rest during this time so my body can better heal itself. Drink a buttload of water.
2-After the cleanse eat a 60-70% raw diet. This will not be forever but for a couple of months I think.
After the initial I can go to meat once a week, primarily wild caught fish.
3- Start taking nutrient/mineral products to bump up my bodily systems. I already ordered them from Sarah. Once I have them I will list their names & descriptions.
4-No more smoking! ARGHH!
5-Aerobic exercise 4x a week for 30-40 mins. I am already doing 3x a week at 20-30 mins so I just need to bump this up. This does not start until after the cleanse.
So this was Day 1: I slept in until 10am. :) I love that. Got up had my radiance C with some juice & a glass of water. Went grocery shopping for lots & lots & lots of fresh, organic veggies. Took my water bottle with me & drank as I shopped. Came home & made lunch for Nevaeh & myself. She had a peanut butter & agave nectar sandwich on sprouted bread with chicken soup, side of tomatoes & cucumbers. I had a veggie sandwich on sprouted bread. I used avocado rather than mayonaise to spread on the bread. Top that with some red lettuce leaves, tomato slices, cucumber slices & a dash of sea salt. I had tomatoes & cucumber & avocado on the side. Delicious! Looks pretty good huh? Dinner was a turkey tenderloin in a lemon garlic marinade for the kids. They also had pasta w/ a white sauce. I made a very simple salad w/ red leaf lettuce, carrots, tomatoes & cucumbers. I sauteed some mushrooms, garlic & onion for myself rather than the turkey tenderloin. But I must admit I cheated and had a small taste of the turkey. :) What can I say? I smoked my last cigarette & so far have had about 54 ounces of water. Sheesh! I am getting the kids ready for bed so that I can take a nice relaxing hot bubble bath and go to bed early. If I am asleep I cannot crave the things I can't have. What things? Hmmmm...cigarettes, some of the vodka in the fridge (its my roommates not mine), a cookie, the leftover turkey, a man (at this point any man would do-I always crave what I do not have) or the leftover pasta.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Well shit! My thoughts are in red.
Are you ready for a relationship that is going to lead somewhere without you being led on? Fucking-A I am. It's time to start weeding out the commitment phobics and put your time and effort into men that are looking for the kind of relationship you want -- one that has a future. I'm 33 years old. I deserve a fucking future. Here's what to look for:
1. His friends are married
If you are interested in a guy, check out his friends' left hands to see if they have wedding rings on. Research has shown that if his friends are already married, he's more likely to get married. If all of his friends are still single and in the "party-with-the-boys" phase, that's a bad sign. uhhhh he had absolutely no married friends. hell i think only one of 'em is even in a relationship.
2. He's financially secure
Studies show that men who own a home are more marriage-ready. A man who is generally financially stable, and has his ducks in a row, feels marriage is a practical next step for him. Well when he has a teaching job he really busts his ass...but the jobs are never long term...and was always talking of moving somewhere else for a job but never actually did it.
3. He pursues you
The guy who is commitment-ready is going to initiate doing things with you he was good at this if it was just to hang out with a bunch of other people...never with just me or my kids. If you're emailing him and he takes days to email you back, if you have to text him to find out where he is, if you are always calling him I quit calling him...he never freaking answered and if he did he was too busy with somebody else to talk to me...yet he could always answer the phone when we were together to talk to whomever had called, you're chasing a man who's probably not marriage-material. I am a moron.
4. He's willing to wait
Yes, research is telling us what we already know: If a guy gets to know you before getting intimate, he is more likely to commit. Oops. CHELSEY DAWN DO NOT READ THIS SENTENCE...WARNING! WARNING! I have been waiting desperately for him to show any physical interest in me for what seems like an eternity. Then suddenly in a "how did that happen?" moment, clothing is missing & 3 days later we break up. Am I that fucking repulsive?!? How am I seriously this fucking stupid? Shouldn't I have learned something by now?
5. He watches DVDs with you when you're sick
Taking care of you when you're sick shows that this guy isn't just in it for the fun and sex. If he wants to be with you in bad times, it's a sign he's in it for the long haul. Does "Call me when you feel better?" count as caring? :(
6. He gets to know your friends and family
A guy who is thinking long-term wants to truly get to know you. Seeing you interact with your family and friends helps him learn where you come from and more about who you are. The flip side of it is that he will also want you to get to know him! He'll want to see if you fit in with his family and friends. A guy who keeps you separate from the important people in his life is just playing around. He can't stand my family and didn't want me anywhere near his. Except perhaps when he was thinking about pissing off his mother (who hates me.) I did finally get to meet his friends but not til about 6 weeks before we broke up.
7. He says, "we" instead of "me"
When he switches from "me" to "we", that's a sign he's committing to you at a deeper level. If your guy is all, "I", "me", and "my" instead of "we" and "us" in conversations after you've been dating a while, his mindset is still in single guy mode. Yeah right! Break-up reason? He needs some space to figure things out for himself, about himself, by himself. Shit! I really am the worlds stupidest woman.
8. He's not afraid of compromise
A commitment-ready guy is going to ask your opinion, consult you about decisions he needs to make, and has the ability to meet you half-way. A bull-headed guy who needs everything his way or it's the highway, isn't ready for the compromise that's naturally part of a mature relationship. We had this one going for us at least. :) We could talk to each other about anything...be completely honest about what we were thinking/feeling. And where did that get me?
9. He doesn't need excuses
Commitment-phobic guys always have an excuse about why they can't be with you on Saturday night, why they didn't call, and why they aren't ready for a relationship right now. A commitment-ready guy doesn't need excuses, he just needs you. Hanging out with E,R or D. Gonna go to a bbq at so & so's...Need to clean my house...I'm too tired...going with the boys to Elitch's, fishing, hiking...hmmmm are you as disgusted with my stupidity as I am?
10. He likes being in a long-term relationship
Some men like being in a monogamous relationship and some don't. The sooner you realize and accept this the better. If he complains all the time about needing space, treats you like a giant burden instead of a gift time with me was the giant burden, there were so many more important priorities...not to mention my kids, apparently they are the biggest burden of all, and keeps talking about taking things slow any slower & he'd be a fucking snail, he's telling you he's not ready for a commitment. On the other hand, if he's done with the party scene, enjoys your "couple time" together what is this "couple time" you speak of?, and has a strong sense of family HA!, you've found a commitment-ready guy.
Oh my God! I should not be allowed to walk around unaided. I am clearly the stupidest fucking woman ever. Why am I so blind when it comes to love & men? I am more patient with this assface than I have ever been with anybody EVER! Why? Because I am a glutton for punishment? Am I an emotional masochist? Or just plain stupid? Why do I fall in love with men that are emotionally stunted? Why did I allow this man into my heart? I know better than that. Now I get to cry into a towel while hiding in the bathroom so that my children don't have to see momma so very upset. I need a freaking cigarette. How do I save my friendship with him? He is my best friend and all I want to do is drive to his house and punch him in the balls.
*Please realize that all statements made are on 3 hours of sleep...a midnight totino's pizza with my roommate who also just broke up with her man...& less than 24 hours after the break-up. I am pissed off, angry, sad, frustrated, upset, confused, hurt, disappointed, exhausted & unsure of any & all decisions I have made in the past 7 months.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Saturday, May 31, 2008
So innocent & sweet? Is it just me or does it look like my daughter was plotting against me even as an infant?
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
1. We no longer use our plastic dishes. Just the ceramics. I have kept the plastic ones however for when we go camping...at least until I can get some good stainless steel dishes.
2. I have taken our plastic kiddie cups to the Goodwill. I offered them on Freecycle but had no takers so I am donating them. I do still need to get some smaller child size drinking glasses. All we have right now are my precious Red Wings glasses and I shall cry if (not when) these get broken. You just cannot replace Red Wings stuff out here in Wings-hater country.
Note: Ok...later this day I went to the store & bought new drinking glasses. :) yay!
3. I am buying all of our fruits & veggies loose. This is actually difficult and expensive which is ridiculous! I have to pay 4x as much for loose potatoes as I would for a 5lb plastic bag full of the little suckers. Same for carrots. Bulk, organic carrots & potatoes just don't seem to EVER go on sale but those darn little plastic baggies of pre-peeled baby carrots are on sale every other week. ARGH!! Now that it is summer I should be able to find some good, organic, locally grown loose lettuce at a Farmer's Market. Thank goodness! I am tired of iceberg because all the Romaine is sold in plastic bags or tubs.
4. Organic, locally milled stone-ground flours are available in bulk at my local Natural Grocer. These do come in plastic bags BUT they will recycle & reuse them if I take them back when I am done. This is better than nothing.
5. I finally found a natural bar soap, comes wrapped in paper that provides a wonderful scent AND lather. No more bottles of body wash for us. Yay! :)
6. I got rid of our plastic water & sports bottles & bought 3 SIGG stainless steel ones. We adore these. I have been saving for them as they are expensive. $20 each. But they have a 10 year guarantee and they really do keep my water cold for about 3 1/2 hours (even in a hot car.) Besides, I used a portion of my economic stimulus rebate so TADAAAAA!!! I contributed to our President's moronic plan to keep us out of a depression. I did my part...don't blame me when it all falls to crap.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
I figured out my grade in chemistry and I can get a 62% on the final next Monday and I would still have an 'A' in the class. Hooray!!
Being a total nerd and turning in all of the homework, getting good grades on the labs and 'A's on my previous tests has finally paid off.
Now, mind you, I would never be willing to settle for a 'd' on a test. That would probably cause me to break out into hives and start hyperventilating. I will still study for the final but I don't have to cram. I don't have to stress over the grade. I don't have to worry about it! Hooray!
Friday, May 02, 2008
Crappity Crap Crap.
Stupid email reminders. Now I have to go in and delete my dad so that this doesn't happen to me next year. This will be the first of anything Dad-related that I have erased. He is still in my email address book. He is still in my phone with a work number (even though I have transferred phones since he died.) Mom's new house is still listed under "Mom & Dad" so that I see his name whenever I get a call. He is still in both of my photo accounts to automatically send pictures of my kids. He is listed in all of my address books, the one in my car, the one in my purse & the one I keep on my desk.
I am just not ready to delete dad.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
None of this is their fault. I am sooo freaking busy right now I feel like I am going 90mph and there is no end in sight. I have a chem lab practical tomorrow which is essentially my lab final. I need to study. I have chem homework, about 15 more problems to do, due Monday. I have 30 workbook pages due on Thursday plus a translation for spanish. I have the workbook about 50% done and I have not even looked at the translation yet. Plus I still need to write my portion of a group presentation for spanish (in spanish).
Kelen has a cub scouts bike rodeo tonight which means I am cooking dinner right now (the potatoes just boiled over actually) and the meatloaf is in the crockpot. The scouting stuff will be from 6pm until probably 8pm and then it is time for showers, bedtime stories, taking care of the cats & dishes so I should be sitting down to study by 9:30pm.
I also seem to have an ant problem here in the apartment. Taking care of the little pests takes so much longer when you choose to use non-toxic methods. I pulled out the fridge this am, swept & mopped with ammonia. After it dried I sprayed some white vinegar down and let it dry. I saw another ant by the cat food about 20 mins ago so I watched where the litle bugger went, then vacuumed his entire trail from the catfood to the sink, mopped the floor again & sprayed more vinegar. If I can find where they are entering I will put down some bay leaves, cinnamon or chili powder, they are all supposed to work. I can't use the borax because of the cats.
Friday, April 11, 2008
She has been arguing with her brother non-stop since she woke up this morning. Actually the booger child woke me up at 6:30am because she wanted her cereal to be poured before his. Now this would aggravate me on a normal day but this morning I did not have to be up that early. The kids didn't have school until 9am. I seriously hate being woken up on days I am supposed to be able to sleep in.
When we got home, we cleaned out the car. I was trying to make room in the trunk for both kids' bikes because my plan was to take them to Bicycle Village to get new tubes put in. This is another single mom annoyance. I don't know how to change bicycle tire tubes so I have to pay somebody to do it for me. Turns out Kelen's bike is too large to fit in my trunk. Dangit! Another little annoyance but not anybodys fault. Nevaeh brought in her bible, one lonely pink bunny slipper, a book she had in the car & her toy keys. When I get into the house I find these items plopped in the middle of my living room floor. "PICK THESE UP NEVAEH GRACE RAMON & GET THEM PUT AWAY. PUT THEM WHERE THEY GO NOW!!!!" 5 minutes later, my precious little blessing is eating her lunch and I go into her room and what do I find?!? I see her bible, one lonely pink bunny slipper, the book & her toy keys IN THE MIDDLE OF HER BEDROOM FLOOR! *now I am a lovely shade of apoplectic purple* This being the color I imagine a person turns when something ruptures in their brain.
Okay I need a break so I go calm myself down (after throwing away said items-well the bible is just put up). I apologize to my daughter for yelling at her and tell her & her brother to go outside and play, Momma clearly needs a time out. 20 minutes later I hear the unmistakable stomping of young elephants racing down my stairs. What has my daughter done now?
She threw a rock at a car. Let me repeat that. She threw a rock at a car.
This is the end of my day and it is only 2:30pm. I quit. By the time I get outside the gentleman has left. Punishments are flying left & right.
1-No birthday party tomorrow. And it is a Hannah Montana party, but as I explained, children that behave like 18 month old toddlers and make crappy choices don't get to enjoy Hannah Montana birthday parties. Young toddlers are not allowed to play with the big kids.
2-She got a spanking.
3-She has no outdoor privileges unless an adult is right there with her. As I do not own a bicycle this means I don't have to spend my money on fixing her bike tire. She can't ride without me therefore she cannot ride.
4-She does not get to spend the night at Grandma's this weekend.
5-She is currently sitting on the floor behind my desk chair. This is where she shall remain until she chooses to apologize & ask for forgiveness. I believe that this will be happening sometime after Hell hosts the next Winter Olympics.
I only wish she had a father coming home to help me deal with this. Well, actually to stay home with the kids while I run away to the nearest Barnes & Noble and/or Starbucks. But woohoo! This is my lucky day! I get to deal with this on my own. Yeah baby! I just love being a single mother today!
Friday, April 04, 2008
Recently I have been working my way through the 'A' section of the library. Yes. Yes I know this makes me a giant nerd. I am okay with that. I go to the the 'A' fiction section and starting with the first book I lovingly run my finger along the spines, carefully checking each title to make sure I have already read it. As soon as I spot a book I have yet to read I grab it up and put it in my library tote. Yes, I carry the same tote bag each and every time I head to the library. (Yes. Yes I know this also makes me a giant nerd. Again, I am okay with that.) Anyway, my bag is the perfect size over-the-shoulder bag that my mom gave me. She painted two different scenes from 'Anne of Green Gables' on it. That is one of my all-time favorite books. My mom can be awesome sometimes.
I am also currently checking out different books from the parenting section. Why? Because my kids frustrate me and it makes me feel better to know that I am not the only momma that wants to tear her hair out and weave it into a decorative & useful basket. Is the hair weaving just me?!? Oh well I am okay with that too.
Did you know that 50Cent has two books out? I found this out by perusing (great word) the 'A' section. Both books totally & completely suck but I tried to read them. I really did.
The other books I am reading: textbooks for school. Sociology, chemistry & spanish. Woohoo!
Monday, March 31, 2008
Why am I so hard on myself? I think the answer is clear. Because I need to be.
Friday, March 28, 2008
This is my hair. I did it again. I cut my hair. Went to Great Clips and told the lady I wanted my hair "somewhere around my shoulders." We decided to cut it off in a ponytail so that I could donate to Locks of Love. Anybody out there with 10" or more hair to cut off can donate. They make wigs for kids that lose their hair due to cancer. Anyway, it needs to dry before I can mail it away. It is currently in the linen closet because the cats seem to think it is a brand new toy for them. I don't have any pictures of what I look like with the new hair but eventually I will get one and post it.
Oh and if you get your hair cut at Great Clips (like I did) they don't charge if you are donating it to Locks of Love. I did not know this when I decided to go there and unfortunately I had no cash on me. I had to go home, get some money and return so that I could tip the lady that did my hair. :) FYI.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I know the picture sucks, sorry about that. This is the best "new" product I have found. I am loving it! I have been trying to reduce the amount of plastic we use as a family. My dilemma? Shampoo & conditioner bottles. They are ALL plastic. But look what I found! DRUMROLL PLEASE!!!!! J.R. Liggett's Old-Fashioned Bar Shampoo. This stuff is amazing!
So now I present the reasons for you to run immediately (well maybe on your next shopping trip as we don't want to promote the wasting of gas) to your local natural grocery store:
-Smells absolutely wonderful, there were two options at my store. Original and an herbal-scented version.
-Advertised as reducing the need for conditioner. This has been true for me so far. FOR ME PEOPLE!! I still have wayyyy too much hair, too long, tangled, & I still do not use a hairbrush to get out said tangles. I used this little bar and have not used any conditioner since. (I was hoping to post a picture of the Bride of Frankenstein here--think of that glorious hair--but I can't get the darn link to work)
-No animal products or testing. Some of us hippie mommas care about these things.
-No preservatives & it is 100% bio-degradable.
-Affordable. I think I paid around $5 for this 3.5 oz bar. Now I know this seems extreme but it says it has about the same # of uses as a 24oz bottle (I have not had the bar long enough to prove this true yet). I buy cheap shampoo & expensive conditioners so this is actually saving me money.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Nevaeh & I went grocery shopping today. Found some decent organic chicken & beef on sale. Woohoo! We also got a couple of cans of organic soups, just enought for a few lunches as my plan is to start making soup in the crockpot and that will be my lunch each day (Neva likes sandwiches & salads). I was also a bad earth-momma and bought 3 boxes of packaged organic mac n cheese. Yes it is organic, which is good, but it is a pre-packaged meal, which is bad. Perhaps they cancel each other out hmm?
Its been a good day. I volunteered at the school library (hadn't gone for two weeks due to depression and feeling crappy). Like I said we went grocery shopping. When I came home, Neva ate lunch (leftovers) while I put groceries away. Then I decided to do the dishes and also to put away all of the crap from under my kitchen sink. It has been sitting on my floor for at least 3 weeks, ever since the sink flooded. I was too dang lazy to put the shelving unit back together. But it is done now. I also put some dinner in the crockpot. Elk-swiss steak. I really hope it turns out good...smells great! Did some sociology work, online & also a couple of online workbook pages for my spanish class.
Took the kids to see "Horton Hears a Who". Parents, don't waste your money on this one. It is an ok film but definitely NOT worth the $40 price tag for tickets, popcorn & drinks. (We took our own candy from home.)
Now, the kids are outside riding their bikes while I mess around on the computer, putting off the mounds of homework awaiting me. Urgh.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Some siblings that were once incredibly close, even good friends, are barely even speaking to one another. The desire to see one another is gone. Perhaps it is because we have had the realization of how short life is bashed into our heads. Why should we spend time with a person we have little in common with. Shared blood is no longer enough apparently. We dislike each others friends/boyfriends/work/life choices, you name it, so why waste our precious time with these people? Is this how it should be? Is this how it shall be from now on?
Those of us that were already estranged no longer even pretend to want to speak or see one another ever again. Dad was the only thing we had in common and with him gone why pretend?
I hate death. I hate the consequences for those of us left behind.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Normally, I would yell. After all...my son learned these words from somebody and ya'll know I am very picky about what he gets to see in movies or on t.v. So. I am to blame. Crap. I suck.
The whole point of this post is that I am actually pretty proud of myself for how I handled the situation. I talked to Kel. Found out who this note was aimed at and why he had written it. I told him that it was very good that he did NOT give this note to the child in question. I explained that it is ok to be angry, even pissed off at what this kid did but that it would NEVER be ok to give this note to him. I told him that we all know how pissed off momma gets at people and that it is also NEVER ok for me to use these words. I apologized to him for setting such an horrible example for him. I also explained that it is very important for him to talk to me (or somebody trustworthy) when he gets this angry. Bottling up that anger is not the path he wants to take in life. Believe me I know all about that.
I remember as a kid (I think maybe 3rd grade) some friends and I wrote a letter like this to a kid. We said the most horrible things to this little boy, horrible, hurtful, hateful words. We also got caught. I was the only one of the letter writers to be grounded by a parent. i chose not to do the same with my son. If he had gone through with his plan to give this to the child I would have had to seriously punish him. But the very fact that he chose not to, that he chose to get this crap out of his little heart and onto the paper, but made the wise decision to keep it to himself. Should I punish him for making the overall right choice?
How many of us would have that much self-control?
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
So anyhoo Kel, Neva & I slept in on the holiday. Well, to be honest, Nevaeh & I slept in while Kelen played his Nintendo DS. We got up and made a lovely little President's Day brunch. Organic english muffins with organic eggs, stone ground mustard & cheddar cheese. YUMMY!! The kids did not even notice that the mustard was on the sandwiches but trust me it makes them taste sooo much better. I stole that tip from my little sis L. *evil grin while twirling fu-manchu mustache* Of course she also puts cream cheese on them but I am trying to lose weight so I left that off. Both kids are getting tired of oranges but they were buy 1 5lb bag get 1 free so we have LOTS & LOTS more to eat.
I also bought some org. pomegranate juice and discovered that it tastes super good when mixed with OJ. Plus it has something like 4x the antioxidants as just plain o.j. Good for us and tastes awesome is always a plus. I may try buying some seltzer water & mixing it with that too.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Thursday, February 07, 2008
-Went to sis's house and made fun of her.
-played with her dogs.
-played bubble breaker on my phone. This is an addictive game.
-went to lunch at 'Mi Tierra' with sis & her hubby. Pretty decent Mexican food for Arvada.
-went back to sissy's house and hooked up her "new" printer.
-went to library and roamed EVERY stack of fiction & non-fiction waiting for the right book to "jump" out at me. It did by the way. I got a book on sibling bickering & also a romance.
-vacuumed my living room for the first time in 2 weeks. It was gross.
-vacuumed the stairs leading down to my apartment.
-called my landlord to thank her for replacing my kitchen faucet & fixing my dishwasher. Told her that now my shower won't turn off.
-went through my stack o' crap to give away & posted some on freecycle also offered some to my cousin for her daughter.
-play with kitties.
-twirl in desk chair.
-notice that computer monitor is dusty, clean it and also dust television screen.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Thursday, January 31, 2008
And besides, its not as if I will be supermodel thin. For crying out loud I am hoping to weigh the same as a woman who will be 9 months pregnant. Once she has the baby we can work out together and she will once again be smaller than me.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
So tonight I made some "fried" chicken and potatoes. The kids loved it. I did too because I knew it was actually healthy for us. I used all natural (no growth hormones or antibiotics) chicken drumsticks which I dipped in a kefir (kind of a natural yogurt) and skim organic milk mixture. Then it was coated with some whole grain, organic bran flake cereal, salt, pepper & some italian seasoning. I put it in the crock pot and it baked for about 4 hours. The outside "skin" was so crispy and not at all greasy. I steamed the potatoes then crisped them in the oven with a little olive oil, salt and pepper. Yummy! We also had some carrot sticks for a vegie.
Now all I have to do is a bit of chemistry homework and drink some water while NOT eating any nighttime snack foods. This is my current attempt at health. I am determined to stop eating at night. Just drink water. I have been smoke free for 4 months now. I gave up diet pop about 2 months ago (which caused major withdrawal headaches) and now, I am giving up nightime snacking. Wish me luck!